Tranferssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!! (week 7)
Holy canlolie! Tranfers are this week and I am literally freaking
out. Can I just say that I ADORE my companions. We love each other so
much it's kind of ridiculous haha. The thought of not serving with them
this coming transfer is making me really sad. It's not for sure that the
three of us won't be together, but because we are in a trio, it is
highly unlikely. But I had a thought today that made me feel a little
better about the whole thing. I have been so anxious to hear what's
going to happen with transfers, we find out tomorrow
by the way, that I've forgotten what the Lord has done for me in my
life thus far.
When I was in the MTC he gave me a zone/district that I
was able to not only get along with, but truly grew to love by the time
we went our separate ways. He also gave me not one, but two companions
who are some of my favorite people in this world. Heavenly Father wants
us to be happy in this life, and while that may not mean that things are
going to be easy all of the time and he is going to give us everything
that we want, that does mean that he will always be working on our side
so that things will turn out for our good. Meaning: whatever happens tomorrow
I am grateful that I was given companions that I was able to love so
easily, and that I trust the Lord completely and I know that whatever he
chooses will make me happy as well. Anyways, with that being said I am
going to move on with my week.
Literally, I think we have angels working
with us out here in The Woodlands. This past week we have been able to accomplish ALL of our goals. That means we have been able to find at
least one new investigator every. single. day. That is so crazy! Every
time President Pingree sees us he tells us that we are an example of
what missionaries should be. I wish you knew how much that means to me.
Based on how discouraged I have felt at times during this transfer,
hearing that our mission president is proud of us, feeling good about
the work I am doing, and knowing that my Heavenly Father is proud of me
makes me feel like I am on cloud nine. Ahhhhh missionary work is
seriously the best thing in this whole world!
So a few little fun things that have been happening: last week.
Sister Sheldon's parents sent her a disney CD and we have been wearing
it out! We seriously listen to it every single day. I know all of the
words to every song haha. I feel like such a nerd sometimes. This
morning at the gym, we made a music video to "Be a Man" from Mulan.
Super goofy, but so funny. Also, while I was in the MTC, one of my
Sister Training Leaders was from Taiwan and she taught me how to say
"Hello my name is Sister Williams" and "thank you" in mandarin. I would
go around saying it all the time. Since I've been out in the field, I
have used that line so many times and it has helped us be able to soften
the hearts of the Chinese people that we randomly tract into and make
it so they allow us to share a message with them. The first time it
happened I was so stoked! Now all I need to do is tract into an Albanian
family, because I learned a few phrases in Albanian as well!
Lastly I would like to share a little something I learned this past
week that I thought was cool. So there is this talk called the fourth
missionary by.... someone that I can't remember the name of. You should
all read it, because it is really good. Anyways, the basic jist of the
talk is about missionaries that are committed to the work, and the
results of that, and missionaries who aren't committed, and the results
of that. But, one thing that he said really stuck out to me. To preface,
sometimes when I think about it enough, I get really sad because I feel
bad for Heavenly Father. I feel bad for the sorrow we cause Him when we
are disobedient or don't live up to our potential, or even just because
we are feeling sad and in turn that makes Him sad because He loves us.
And because of this, I've tried to think of ways that I can repay Him
and make His burden a little less. The conclusion that I would come to
again and again though, is that there is nothing I can do that will
repay Him for all that He has done for me. Anything that I "sacrifice",
be it time, money, energy, whatever, all has its origin in Him and
therefore I am not giving Him something that He didn't already give me
first. It was super frusturating. But when I read this talk it made it
clear that there was something that I could give Him that He never had
to begin with. "In
the end, your heart and your will is all that you have to give that the
Lord does not already have. If you give your time, two years, and your
strength, you give only that which He grants to you with each beat of
your heart and each breath that you draw. If you dedicate your gifts and
talents, you only return to Him what He already has given to you. If
you pay tithing you only return to Him a tenth of what He has already
given to you. Everything that you have to give to the Lord, has its
origin in Him, except one thing: your will.
He does not have your heart, nor your mind, unless you give them to
Him. It is the only gift you have to offer that He does not already
have. And so when you give yourself, you truly give everything to Him."
My will is the one thing that my Heavenly Father did not give to me,
and the one thing that he cannot take unless I give it to Him
willingly. The interesting thing about this is, that even though
this means sacrificing everything I have, I am still receving everything
in return. When the will of the Father and the will of the child are
aligned, that is when we receive the most blessings, and experience the
most joy. As we are obedient, and willingly so, He can bless us with
blessings the "we have room not enough to receive". This is such a cool
concept in my mind.
Anyways, I must go now because we are going bowling
as a district. See ya soon!
-Sister Williams
Awesome thoughts. Our prayers are with you. Keep strong.
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